Tired..

Well.. after an emotionally high yesterday after my driving test results are out, I'm starting to feel very tired today.. dun koe why..

Work is extremely tiring today.. I took crates, and a few of the executives cldn't believe their eyes tat I actually took crates, becos this is supposed to be the operator's job, but they dun want to do, so what to do? I have to do rite.. so ya.. Sometimes I really wonder whether my boss sees all these or appreciate what I do?

Becos today got sumwhat a scolding from boss, as I was not at the packing area, becos my senior operator got MC.. so ya.. he is mad at me becos I didnt look after my operators, and they are instead lazing in the toilet without me calling them.. I koe they are inside, but then I dun really want to call them, becos its like they dun have much to do.. so ya.. if my boss see they got nothing to do, he would scold me again for not giving them things to do.. so you tell me.. like that I'm in a very difficult position rite?
This morning I was again thinking of resigning, becos I have a boss who is temperamental at times, and sometimes he sees me take crates and all, he like never say "good job abriel" or sumthing re-assuring that he sees my effort.. he just keeps quiet.. so sometimes, I really think does the Company recognise my effort? Dun say me.. my boss last time always go down to help in packing in the event that not enuf ppl.. now, he juz stay there and look before walking away.. he dun even bother to help lohx.. its very seldom that he help.. so ya.. Sometimes, I dun koe wat boss I have lahx..

But anyway, its only abt a mth more before his last day.. so I guess that it wld be the end of my misery, and hope I would have a more caring and appreciative boss.. so ya.. becos I think its high-time that I would want to change company, and I'm just waiting for the right moment/time.. so ya..

Ok lahx.. I think I just got to go and sleep liaox.. its getting late!

An un-appreciated guy @ work,
<<< abriel >>>

Overjoyed!

** Photo on left: My test result slip! Do you see what I see? =)

Well.. this has got to be one of those days where I'm so happy!! Yes! After 4 attempts, I finally PASSED my final theory test!

I was as usual very anxious throughout this whole day, becos' I didnt koe wat to expect.. The two words, "what if" just kept appearing in my mind.. As the clock ticks by the minute, and approaching the test time, my heart starts to beat faster.. Hands start to feel cold.. Butterflies start "flying" in my stomach!

Today left office at like 1606 hrs, becos last minute got things to settle.. then just so happen within 5 minutes, I got a cab, and was on my way to the test centre at Ubi.. and my mind was like thinking, in the event that I didn't pass, what would I tell my boss or my subordinates tml when they ask me? so ya.. But now I pass liaox, so dun need to worry lohx..

Anyway, I reached the driving centre at like 1620 hrs lahx.. then sat there and study the rest of the bk till my e-trial test starts at 1715 hrs.. so ya.. it was quite stressful lahx.. so ya..

I tried altogether 3.2 e-trial papers.. the last one I cldn't complete and view the answers, becos of lack of time.. so ya.. and the first paper, I only got 88%, so I failed.. but the next two, I passed the test (becos it was less statistical, but instead more practical based).. so ya..

Then came the time where the e-trial test ended, and I went downstairs to the chair area to wait for the actual test to happen.. so there, I was like I dun koe wat to read liaox, becos its like suddenly I like scared I forgot everything.. so ya..

Then just view a few pages to confirm lohx.. managed to get some of the essential demerit pts stuff rite.. so ya..

Then I was like you koe.. hands freezing cold.. the test started and I viewed each answer carefully, in order not to make any stupid or careless mistakes.. sometimes I would stay there and think of the answers until I headache lohx..

Then, it came almost to the last question of the test.. my heart was beating very fast.. Then I realised NOT safe enuf, so I re-check each question again.. changed one of my answers becos its like I dun feel that its the correct one.. so its probably that changed answer which make me pass lahx.. you never koe mahx..

Then as I reviewed the last question, I clicked "end test" and confirm my decision.. (I have a BOLD feeling that at the beginning of the test, I have passed it already!, but just cldn't confirm whether its true or just a tot of mine!) then I closed my eyes with my palms.. and viola.. a word, "PASSED", appeared on-screen! so ya.. I was so happy that I cldn't stop thanking God, as well as I was smiling all the way as I was abt to go to the counter and print the test result slip.. so ya..

Its there that I heaped a sigh of relief.. so ya.. Then I started to SMS a few of my good friends abt the joy that I'm experiencing at that moment.. and man.. congratulation msgs juz kept flooding in! So ya.. thank peepz for the messages! Really touched! =)

But above all these, just really want to thank God.. because this is really a miracle lahx, as I have not really prepared well enuf for this test, becos of my busy and hectic working schedule.. so ya.. Just really can't thank Him enuf lahx! =)

Ok lahx.. gtg and catch some really of my beauty sleep.. tml is another day at work, and I foresee tat it would be quite a terrible day tml.. but watever it is, I shall leave whatever bad things till tml.. I just want to enjoy my peaceful sleep tonite.. so ya..

Thank you ppl once again, and yes! I've PASSED!!! Lalalalala... =)

One step closer to my Class 3 licence,
<<< abriel >>>

A day before my test!

Well ppl.. its official! After 2 long years, I'm feeling stressed! Never did I have this feeling before lahx, except before I enlisted into NS!.. yupz.. most of you all have guess it.. its my FINAL DRIVING THEORY test tml (30/7)..

Somewhat I just lost my appetite and unable to sleep very well at nite.. I dun koe why this is happening to me?

Maybe I have not study well enuf (but then again, I read the bk and its like I koe almost everything becos its like the word version of my practical driving lessons).. so ya.. I also dun koe why..

And believe it or not.. I have not even finish reading up the bk.. I think I'm so gonna fail this test.. esp. the demerit pts part.. sure ask one, and I tell you, I sure te-kum one.. haix.. so if I pass, it can only be a miracle.. of course, I would want to pass it, becos tml is my 4th attempt in taking the driving theory test.. so ya.. so apparently, being a veteran at such stuffs is not very good lahx..

But oh well.. I'm gonna see how the day goes tml.. so ya.. so if I really pass tml, most of my good friends are gonna receive an SMS from me.. but if you do not receive any SMS, it means otherwise lahx.. so ya..

But in the meantime, decide not to study anymore, as I have done so for the whole day liaox.. so ya.. anyway, its all up to God lohx.. so ya.. leaving everything to Him.. so ya..

Anyway, bought a polo tshirt from Espirt today.. original is $59.90.. but for today only, there is 10% discount storewide, so in the end, I only paid $53.91.. so ya.. quite a good buy lahx.. so ya.. bought it for P&P service at my church next weekend.. so ya.. Looks quite good on me leh.. hahax.. =).. I koe I'm BHB-ing.. but whatever.. I like it can liaox! =).. Now I buy clothings, I would like take a smaller size, so that it fits my body and doesn't make me look fat or sumthing.. I think I'm very conscious abt my image now lahx.. so ya.. =)

And oh today, driving is way cool lahx! I got the Malay instructor, who has taught me for consecutive wks and then somehow he MIA.. then today he appeared again.. my directional change for the whole of last week, I cldn't get it right, becos the instructor taught me a method which is like impossible lahx, for a beginner like me lohx.. so ya..
Today like within 15 mins, its settled liaox, and I can say, I'm like 80% confident can get it liaox lohx.. so ya.. its just my straightening technique lahx.. so ya..

Then today I also learn how to do perpendicular parking.. so ya.. only half there.. so ya.. I'm sure with more practice, I can do it lahx.. so ya..

But 1 thing still remain in my mind.. next time when I got my license, next time no poles to guide me and only got cars beside me and no poles, how am I going to park? so ya.. then also the directional change how? haix.. well.. tat one I must pass first then talk lohx..

Ok.. enuf abt all these excitements liaox.. time to get back into serious business.. tml test liaox.. stressed!

Got to go and take some winks liaox.. tired..

Stressed out boy,
<<< abriel >>>

Sianx..

Well work today was ok.. not much trouble.. That young chap kenna called up to see my boss.. told him to go see, but in the end, dun koe whether he see or not.. so ya..
Gonna find out tml lohx..

Today came back early and then study a bit of my advance driving theory.. then guess wat.. I fell asleep.. how lazy I am rite.. so ya..

Whatever it is, tml is gonna be another day, so ya.. Just can't wait for the dinners nxt wkend.. so ya..

Ciaoz,
<<< abriel >>>

Injustice still pending..

Well.. the verdict of the young guy who forged my signature is still in the process.. My boss asked me to ask the guy some questions which I reluctantly did (becos no choice).. Believe it or not, talking to him is like the most tortuing thing to do.. I'm actually quite scared to talk to him, and I also dun like to talk to him.. so ya.. so everytime you see me do stuff with him around, I would just keep quiet..

Well.. just now at work, I wrote a long email to my boss reporting what I ask.. so ya.. it now all depends on him lohx.. haix..

Other than that, nothing really much happened today, except that Alex waited for me for dinner.. and ya.. guess our friendship started to grow closer.. He is like my old friend liaox.. I actually share with him some work stuff, and I feel good sharing my problems at work with someone.. its like someone who provided a listening ear is so comforting lahx.. =)

So ya.. dun think have anything else to blog.. need to sleep liaox.. and I have not even touch my advance driving theory.. felt so guilty lahx.. haix.. =(.. lets just see when I can find time to study lohx.. hahax..

Ok lahx.. eyes closing liaox..

Goodnite,
<<< abriel >>>

A short post..

Ok.. today nothing much happened at work, except that the young operator at my workplace actually had the audicity to forge my signature on a document.. so ya.. this is the second chance I gave him.. told my boss abt it and he said he is going to settle it tml.. so ya.. just hope my boss recommends termination for him.. if so, I wld be the happiest man in the world! =)

Then I just realise that I need to talk abt that personal issue (which I mentioned in my blogpost yesterday) to someone, or else I just cldn't sleep.. and you koe wat? It happened today again.. so ya.. so I have no one to turn to, except Tjow (my brother and mentor), who gave me some sound advice.. thanx bro! =)

Then as I was blogging this post, Sidney called me to talk cock sing song again lohx.. so ya..

Tat typically ends my day.. juz wanna end by saying that from tml till end of July, any OT tat I do in office wld be free-of-charge for company, becos I over my OT cap limit liaox.. haix..

August is a time of really meeting up with friends as well as celebrating birthdays.. here is a brief outlook:

(a) 4/8 - Celebrate Shanshan birthday @ Waraku Japanese Rest, Marina Square
(b) 5/8 - Dinner Gathering with Cheong @ Pearl River Palace Restaurant
(c) 25/8 - Celebrate Alex birthday @ My Secret Garden

Now you koe how busy I am.. gonna spend a lot of money in August.. I'm gonna go broke lohx..

Ok lahx.. gtg and get some sleep..

Goodnite world,
<<< abriel >>>

Some catching up to do..

Ok.. this is a "catching up post"..

I have been very busy lately, and only have time like today only to R&R.. by rite, I should study for my driving theory next Mon, but then I lazy.. Let's just try and error to see whether I can pass my Advance Driving Theory, becos this is my 4th time taking it.. so ya.. so its like if this time cannot, then I bk for the next one lohx, and my driving would juz be pushed back lohx.. so ya.. I hope to pass this time round lohx.. becos its like I feel dun need to study so much, becos its like study also not all questions will come out from there lohx..

Anyway, this post has some photos to spice up my blogposts loh.. People like Sidney has been complaining my blog is all words but no pics..

Anyway, the following 2 photos were taken by me on Sun (15/7), during the gathering for His Sanctuary Cell Group, and the special guest for that day is none other than Wendy, who is back on a 2 wks holiday from Beijing.. so ya..

** Photo on right: U-Crazy-What?!? @ Botak Jones, AMK

Its 450g of beef, topped up with cheese, and some salad.. Super filling lahx..

And thank goodness, this is not my dinner, or else I would have been so full until I cannot walk.. hahax..

** Photo on left : Fish & Chips @ Botak Jones, AMK

This is my dinner.. looks quite good rite? But in fact, not really very nice.. in fact, I feel Fish & Co does a much better job..

But this is real cheap.. $6 nia.. so ya..

So ya.. tats some pics for you lahx..

Then came Friday (20/7) where Cheong left the office for good.. and its like so sad lahx.. I almost cried I tell you.. but then again, its nothing to cry abt lahx.. its not like we have lost contact or sumthing.. in fact, we are meeting up for dinner on 5/8 lohx.. so ya.. =)
But of course, there is still that tinge of sadness in me lahx.. haix..

Then Sunday (22/7) came, where I went to Tjow's hse to celebrate Eleanor's (his daughter) 1st birthday. Then I did an Operation Ice Cream.. What is Operation Ice Cream? You have to wait till the photos are out and then you wld koe wat is the Operation Ice Cream.. for those of you who were at the birthday party, you wld koe wat I mean lohx.. so ya.. =).
Still awaiting the photos from Tjow.. so ya.. when he sent me, I will post it up on my blog ya =)

Yesterday, Monday (23/7) came and it was back at work.. and for a record time, I actually left office at 12am *gulpz*.. had to finish up some unfinished work after my production ended like at 2230 hrs.. My section was the only one left on the production floor.. everyone was home liaox.. so ya.. quite sad lahx..

So since yesterday I came home late, I bathe and by the time I slept, its like already 1am when I sleep.. And woke up at 6am to go to work this morning.. so you can imagine how tired I felt at work..

Lunch was as usual with Alex (who is like my meals- teabreaks, lunch & dinner kakki liaox), and he told me something which I was quite shock and I must say jealous or sumthing lohx.. shall not divulge in this blogpost, becos its like quite confidential.. but ya.. its quite hurting lahx.. but oh well, tats life! haix..
(juz thinking of it now makes me sad as well.. haix..)

Fortunately, today got low production, so left office at 4pm.. told my boss abt it.. so ya.. And now, my OT is worrying, becos its like another 4.5 hrs of OT more, I will work for free for my company, which I'm not so willing to, but do I have a choice? I dun have wat.. so ya.. haix..

Ok lahx.. gtg and do my other stuff liaox.. must sleep at 10pm tonite, or else I dun have any alertness to carry on tml.. so ya.. Nitex ppl..

Catching up is so hectic,
<<< abriel >>>

The departure of a good friend..

Well.. today I was totally sianx at work towards the end of the day..

Today is audit at my company, and everyone was busy.. so ya.. I was of course busy as well..

Had lunch with Alex as usual.. then during lunch, I asked him wat time is he eating his dinner (which is usually both of us meet to eat dinner), then he told me that he is eating buffet.. then I was like curious and asked him why and all.. he told me the reason.. And its tonite that they are celebrating and giving Cheong a farewell treat.. my boss was the organiser.. so ya..

I was initially quite mad with my boss, becos its like this kind of thing why never ask me? But then I think I shld not be petty over something like that, becos even if he ask me, I still can't go becos my production have not finish, and then how can I just leave like that rite..

Then its like I just suddenly felt sianx.. I also dun koe why.. I think its becos of the following 3 reasons:

(1) Disappointed with my boss who didnt even bother to invite me.
(2) No dinner kakki.
(3) Sad that Cheong is leaving like in 2 days time..

So ya.. Just thinking of this just wanna make me cry lahx, becos its like we have been colleagues like since last October.. and he has NEVER fail to cheer me up or just talk crap when I work late into the nite with him.. and trust me.. the only reason why I decide to stay on this job is not becos of the pay or what.. its actually colleagues like Cheong which really make my working experience worthwhile, because at least there is something that I can look forward to, at work everyday. But now he is resigning, I wonder how long wld I stay at the job lahx..

But seriously, I think I felt sianx this whole nite is this thing abt Cheong leaving the Company.. so ya.. Just thinking of it, and if I'm really alone at office, I think I would just shed a tear or two.. that's how strong I treasure our friendship.. so ya..

But oh well.. when ppl got to go, they got to go.. 2 more days before he say goodbye.. so ya.. Going to buy a farewell gift for him, and give him on Friday lohx. so ya.. haix..

Don't disturb me,
<<< abriel >>>

Its been a long time...

Well.. you can say yesterday nite (Sat - 15/7) was really one nite which was really unforgettable! Believe you me.. As I'm writing this post, I'm still in yesterday's mood man!

You may then think wat is so special about yesterday nite which makes it unforgettable.. so ya.. Its actually going to a KTV session with my church friends (Tjow, Christina, Ryan & Cat).. I tell you.. yesterday nite was really unforgettable!

I have not gotten over the momentum yet! So ya.. yesterday was a church camp debrief and then followed by dinner @ Sakae Sushi near church.. so ya..

Then becos Tjow yesterday was alone (becos his wife and daughter were at home resting, as her daughter is sick and his wife needs to look after), its obviously he can actually spend out late as he has no "burdens" mahx.. so ya..

So the 5 of us (Tjow, Christina, Ryan, Cat & me) went over to "The One" KTV @ Neil Road (opp. Maxwell Market Food Centre & very near our church), and we just sang the nite away! From 2200-0120! Had a blast of a time lahx.. I think our KTV studio is the only one in the whole building which actually have a mix of old and new songs (which reminds us of the FM station of MediaCorp, Love 97.2FM).. hahax.. we actually pick those songs from the 80's till now..

Believe it or not.. I actually pick 2 songs which were super old drama serials theme song.. so ya.. it was really refreshing to hear it lahx.. =)

Then for once, yesterday I sang a variety of songs from different artistes.. from of course my fav singer, JJ Lin to Coco Lee.. If I remember correctly, here are the artistes' song that I sang:

(1) JJ Lin (aka Lin Junjie)
(2) Hong Junyang
(3) Coco Lee
(4) Kit Chan
(5) Elva Hsiao
(6) Ronan Keating
(7) Chen Hanwei
(8) Guang Liang
(9) Cao Ge
(10) Diana Ross
(11) Harlem Yu (Yu Chen Qing)

So ya.. so now you koe yesterday I was so happy yesterday.. I sang so many new songs lehx.. hahax.. =).. Well.. its a 3 hrs period, so naturally sang for the full 3 hours.. so by the time we are done, its 0120 hrs.. so ya..

Tjow fetched me home as he was on his way to Hougang (becos he stayed over at is in-laws house).. Thanx bro for the lift! =).. it was indeed a blessing lahx =)..

Then by the time I bathe and start sleeping, its already 0200 hrs.. and wats worst.. woke up at 0600 hrs this morning to go to work.. so ya.. sianx rite?

Today at work was just supervising the painting process, but its super sianx lahx.. just can't get over the KTV session lohx.. haix.. ok.. I better end this post, or else other ppl will say I too long post and all.. hahax.. =P..

KTV is my kind of thing and wonder when is the next time...,
<<< abriel >>>

The time is drawing nearer..

Well ppl.. the time is drawing nearer when Cheong had to leave the workplace for greener pastures.. its really saddening lahx.. Just really wondering when the day comes and Cheong have to go, what will I do? Cry? ha.. I dun koe..

Then my boss is also leaving soon.. though last day is in on 09 Sept.. so ya.. really saddening lahx.. and the same time, excited becos there maybe a chance for me to be promoted, so I must out-perform myself.. but well.. I shall see how it goes lahx.. I think I'm getting more excited liaox, becos its like everytime there is a mystery abt who is promoted and all, I would get all hyped up but in the end, its always a disappointing answer.. haix..

Cheong (who is my colleague and is leaving soon, but very close to my boss) a few times saying that I would become Production Executive and take over his place, or taking over my boss position (always jokingly).. so ya.. I wonder whether he is hinting to me sumthing or is he joking? I dun koe.. so ya..

My boss also requires me to go back to office on Sun (gulp!) to work (ie, to supervise the workers on the painting job that they do). So its like his reason is he wants to train me.. so wonder whether this is a sign of promotion?
Though yes, I get double pay for it, but then look at it this way.. I actually work 7 days a week.. naturally I wld feel sian rite? One day of not being in office is considered very good liaox.. now want me to work? Then worst still.. no good friends there, so confirm bored one lohx.. just see see look look and spend my Sunday rotting in the office lahx..

Then worst still.. tml is church camp 2007 debrief, and Tjow happen to be Chairman for Church Camp 2008.. and he told me to expect something big.. so ya.. but wonder what it is.. becos I'm like suddenly I can't take it how.. hope everything wld go on well ya.. =)

Ok.. gtg liaox.. have to sleep becos waking up early tml.. so ya..

Sunday have to work.. why????,
<<< abriel >>>

Think.. think.. think..

Well.. today I was having lunch with Alex (one of the AQCOs who is also one of my good friend at my workplace..)..

And we were discussing abt the ppl that we expect will leave the company will do so in a very short time..

Then I told him what my executive told me this morning.. its either my executive or my boss himself actually suggested I learn how to work the computer system, as after my boss is gone, the executive is the ONLY one in my dept who koes how to use the computer programme.. so in the event that he is on leave, there is no one else to key in the figures into the computer system, which must be done on a daily basis..

I was of course shocked when I first heard it, becos its like I tell you.. learning this programme is not easy.. a lot of hiccups to do and stuff.. so learning it means more work at office to do..
At the launch of this program, I actually asked my boss to teach me becos I was not very involved in production then.. but then now I'm involved in production, and moreover, if I manage to master this computer program, I reckon I would be somewhat heavily involved in this system.. so ya..

Of course, tots that run thru my head at first moment is that there is quite a higher chance for me to be promoted to executive level (instead from my humble supervisor level), becos this computer program is mostly done by executive level and above, and you seldom see supervisors actually do this stuff.. so ya.. but then again, I do not dare to place my hopes too high, becos its like everything is not confirm.. I dun even koe whether I wld be promoted.. so ya..

Then while Alex & I was chatting, I actually told him that if I'm heavily involved in this computer program, this means that even if I want to resign (becos its like I'm on the verge anytime, becos its really stressful), I have to re-consider.. becos if its like if there is no new ppl to replace my boss and/or the other dept's executive position, then my executive have to do the planning for both depts (which is ultimately hectic).. so with such a hectic schedule, do you think he have time to key in the daily figures?
So this is why I'm hesistant to quit if really such a situation persists.. I have to wait till everything settle down before I start quitting lohx..

So anyway, Alex and I was chatting.. and he said becos I'm doing so much work, there is quite a chance for me to be promoted.. so he asked me this question which puzzles me even till now.. the question is:

"If I'm really promoted to Production Executive, would I still stay on becos of the position or wld I still decide to leave?"

Its really hard to answer.. becos its like so tempting to stay, but then, I can't work in the environment anymore, which explains why I wanted to quit.. but then again, ppl have also been saying me that I would take the place of my boss, which is asst. production manager, becos I got the necessary qualification.. I'm of course totally flattered, but I rule that possibility out TOTALLY! Its like jumping and promoting 2 positions leh.. I'm not even well-versed in the other section (ie, juice), and I only got 8-9 mths experience, how then can I be a manager? They muz be kidding lahx..

But ya.. this question still remains.. if I'm promoted, would I still stay or insist on leaving the Company?

Just have to pray abt it and just hope that God will reveal to me the answer sometime real soon.. At the same time, I will also seek some advice from some of my close friends, so as to get their views.. so ya.. Just hope I can untie this persisting tot lohx.. its getting quite irritating actually.. haix..

Too much thinking for a supervisor,
<<< abriel >>>

another resignation in my office

yes ppl.. this time its another resignation in the office, and its none other than my boss.. so ya.. his reasons for quitting were very clear.. and I'm just beginning to suspect whether is there really anything wrong with this company, that so many ppl were just quitting lahx..

Its just so discouraging to see so many ppl quitting, and its like the ppl I can click with.. haix.. Sometimes I really wonder when would be my turn..

Today, I heard from my colleague, that the HR manager has sent down an email saying that in the event that they spot the operators wearing old uniforms, they are going to issue warning letter to the supervisor/executive. Well.. this is becos the workers got new uniforms, and we are suppose to do a 1-1 exchange.. however you see.. not all the workers will throw the uniforms, becos they complain not enuf.. so ya.. so wat I did is I trust that they wld throw away, and I conveyed the msg yesterday to my senior operator and section leader, trusting that they would follow wat I say.. so ya..
So I tot of it liaox.. in the event that I really get a warning letter becos of this, I would just resign becos you see.. its not entirely my fault.. by then, I hope I can find a job by then, or else, if I just resign like that, wat do I eat? Grass? so ya..

Am really angry over the email sent by the HR Manager, becos its quite unreasonable lahx.. but wat to do? I'm employed by the Company, and have to listen to every word that the HR Manager says rite? Its all a matter of submitting to authority..

This morning actually I find something not rite.. becos I happen to saw my boss writing a performance appraisal.. but dun koe for who.. becos its like if its any of the operators, then the direct superior (which is the supervisors) would do the appraisal.. but then my boss write the appraisal.. so that could only be the appraisal for executive level (which is the 3 of us - 2 supervisors & 1 executive).. its either someone is gonna get promoted soon, or pay adjustment, etc..
Of course, I really hope that he is doing a performance appraisal for me, so that I get promoted to executive position, instead of being at supervisor position.. but then again, I dun dare to place my hopes too high, becos one of the supervisor has worked for like 26 yrs, so ya.. so even if there is a promotion, this supervisor shld be promoted first mahx..
So wat if I have Diploma but only 8 mths of experience? Comparing me in managing the ppl on the production floor, I feel that my colleague who has 26 yrs of experience, fares much better than me, and able to supervise more than me.. so ya..
So tats why I dun place my hopes too high.. In fact, I wish to forget all abt it, juz in case I get disappointed that it is not me.. so ya..

So ya.. Now I'm at a loss now.. dun koe whether shld I continue working or would there come a day that I would submit that very "important" letter to my new boss? I dun koe.. I'm now living on a day-to-day basis..

Living on the edge,
<<< abriel >>>

A great weekend..

Saturday at church nothing really much to mention.. it was great as usual.. but nothing to commend, becos no after church activities mahx..

Then Sunday (8/7).. morning was driving as usual.. then after which, went over to church for Youth Leaders' mtg. Then after which, its lunch at Tanjong Pagar Market.. had my usual Set A (this is wat Alvin & me call our standard menu at Tanjong Pagar Market).. hahax.. its actually the delicious lau mee (of course both of us dun even spare the black vinegar, for we pour it as if it was free.. hahax.. we really "whacked" the black vinegar until dun koe like wat lohx.. =).. Then after which, Set A wont be complete until we had our Annie's Peanut Ice Kachang! Yummy.. =)

After which, sat in my brother and mentor, Tjow, car to go to Funan to accompany him to get the DVD burner for our church stuff.. so ya.. I'm in charge of editing the videos, and he is in charge of burning them.. so ya.. so we both are a team lahx =).. of course, in the car, I share with him some of my problems I face at work.. so ya..

Then after that, went over to Raffles City to meet Boon Sen (my bunk mate from NS.. we are a clique lahx.. so after so long, we managed to meet up lohx..).. We are waiting for another friend of ours, Kok Wei, but becos he had something on, he cld only meet up an hour later.. so Boon Sen & I went to Starbucks @ Suntec, and we juz share with each other wat we do at work and all...

After which, we met up with Kok Wei, and went for dinner @ Seoul Garden @ Marina Square (both Boon Sen & I had the initial same idea when we met earlier in the day, and both of us went over to the place to reserve seats, juz in case lohx.. hahax..)

The food was so so only, but wat matters most is the conversation between the 3 of us.. lots of catching up to do lahx..

But then wat I really didnt expect was tat Kok Wei is now an insurance agent and he tried to sell me a policy.. I wasnt very keen in the beginning, but then after so much talking, I decide to let him say his piece.. and then I told him I would have to think over and see how, becos it involves another sum of money, which every mth I have high expenditure costs, and they are even shock how detailed is my monthly budget and the amt I spend each mth..

So ya.. Then whilst on my way back home, I did seek some advice from Tjow, my brother, regarding this.. and he gave me some sound advice.. thanx bro! =)
Came home and spoke to my mum abt it and she also not in favour, becos its quite risky.. considering that I juz started work and ya.. Tats what I tot of it too, becos you koe me lahx.. I'm NOT a risk-taker lohx.. so ya.. now you koe why I never will imagine myself (and perhaps never) opening my own business.. hahax.. =P

So this morning, I sent over an SMS to Kok Wei telling him of my decision, and I'm glad that he respected it.. so ya.. =)

Today at work was quite smooth, except for a small glitch lahx.. but other than that, nothing much happened at work.. so ya..

Came home today at abt 4.30pm to study my final driving theory, which is happening on 30/7.. and I have not even done half.. so ya.. let's see how much I can stufy b4 the time is up lahx.. and see whether this time I can pass.. juz hope lohx.. becos this is the 4th time I take liaox.. so ya.. dun wan to malu myself further lahx.. =(

But then half-way fell asleep, and decided to stop studying, and do up a minor change to the church camp video which I'm currently editing lohx.. so ya..

Ok lahx.. need to go and sleep liaox.. am really short of sleep.. =)

Sleepy head,
<<< abriel >>>

My working life..

Well.. one by one, I just find that my good friends/colleagues in my company is like either has already tendered their resignation or they are probably on the verge or thinking about it. I can sense it lahx..

Sometimes I really think whether I work so long for the company, whether is there any returns for me? Do I work just for money or do I work for passion?

I guess its just money that I'm working for.. my passion in this line has already died out, since I have not got the dream job that I always wanted.

And even if I'm working only for money, there is of course I hope good working colleagues to work with.. Its like after so long, that I finally found who are my good colleagues and all.. and its always the good colleagues which always leave, and the bad ones (I dun mean the office staff but my workers under my charge) which stay. How come like that? I dun understand.

And then today, one of my office staff came and told me that Cheong is leaving.. I said "I koe, that's why I'm sad".. and he told me that in corporate world, there is no such thing as permanent colleagues. I tot of it, that actually its true lahx, but I just can't get over the fact that someone who is so close to me is actually resigning. I sometimes really wonder whether I draw my strength to carry on working in this company, is it because of our working relationship? I dun koe..

Then yesterday in company, my product got a bit of problem.. 2nd time happening already.. the last time, the QC manager said no problem.. can issue out.. but then it happened again.. called my boss yesterday but he never pick up.. Went to look for the QC Officer, but she went back liaox.. so I'm at a loss.. dun koe wat to do..
Then fortunately my boss called back (after giving him like 15 missed calls!) and asked me wat happen.. so ya..

Then this morning my boss went to talk to the QC Officer, and she said that she have to consult her boss (which is the QC Manager) to see whether it is able to be released since it is the second time that this product happened..
(Her boss, which is the QC Manager, is only coming back tml!)

Well.. I got the feeling that tml I would be called up to explain this to the QC Manager.. haix.. I juz hate myself, becos its like everytime I run this flavour, something would happen.. I koe its not my fault, but you koe.. I feel just so fustrated when something happens and though its not my fault (becos I didnt koe how it happened!), I would sure need to answer for it.. Tml also sure kenna asked a lot of questions by the QC Manager one.. confirm.. let's just hope that she would not scold me ya becos its not my fault lahx..

Well.. just see how long I can last lohx.. I'm totally confused and sad lahx..

My working life has gone from 100% exciting to 1% exciting,
<<< abriel >>>

Work is getting more stressful each day!

Well.. u may think why I said this..

I dun koe.. I got so much problems at work these few days, esp. this week.

That troublemaker worker (the youngest one) is causing a lot of discomfort in me.. its like everytime I see him, I would get very fustrated.. and every little wrong thing he does, I would want to like shout at him, but I controlled..

Then just last Mon (02/07), I quarreled with him, becos he was not happy that I took off his process allowance.. The reason why I did it is becos' that he is not involved in the process section, becos of his attitude and its my boss decision as well to like take him to packing side, so as to prevent him from making other trouble.. Eventually, he wld be terminated or transfer to other dept. Anyway, I told him off that if he doesn't want to do, he can resign.. then he gave me that look and said something else.. I dun care about him.. I just walk away!

Then the next day, this troublemaker actually forge my signature.. Fortunately I found out and its not an impt document or sumthing, or else, I'm so gonna get it.. I wanted to tell my boss abt it, but decide to see whether he does it again.. becos if he does, I got all the more reason to penalise him..

This troublemaker is really getting on my nerves lahx..

Then not only that.. my fellow colleagues, Cheong & Andy had tendered their resignations from the company..

Andy is like I'm quite "close" to him, becos everytime I always call him regarding my workers' pay, etc.. but its nothing compared to the working relationship with Cheong.. becos Cheong is a guy who sits behind me in office, and he frequently works late, and I does so weekly too.. so its like he is the one whom I always joke with or talk with when I get bored.. and moreover, our age gap is only 4 yrs.. so its like I look up to him as like a big brother.. so ya..
And his last day would be like soon lahx, so its like I'm gonna be so bored lahx and no one to talk crap or joke with..

Cheong and me can really click well lahx.. and I actually asked him today when he was beside me, I asked him, "who will humour me when I'm stressed or sad?".. and he was like "aiya..".. well.. when ppl got to go, they got to go rite? I can't stop them lahx! But I will sure miss the times when we talk a lot of crap and laugh together in the late nites when its only both of us in the office toiling for the company, and doing our respective work! haix.. Trust you me.. I was like wanted to ask him whether got lobang in the company, becos its really great to work with him, but then I held back, becos its like I have not even have enuf experience, and I want to jump ship?

Well.. I juz wonder when God wants me to jump ship, becos I really can't tahan liaox.. its getting more stressful.. haix..
I'm just afraid that all the stress can like make me get depression lohx..

Ok lahx.. gtg and do my publicity stuff again.. its never-ending lahx.. haix..

Stressful supervisor,
<<< abriel >>>