Anger & Disappointments are part of life??

Well.. this post is gonna be a little bit harsh.. as in the words phrase or stuff.. so ya.. be warned! Becos' I'm super pissed off and wld like to vent my anger on this blog! So ya.. so here goes..

First, shall start with the good news (becos' there's only 1).. the good news was tat I was mobilised last nite (whilst on duty).. so therefore, going to church later is not much of a problem! PTL!! =).. Was so so happy tat I was mobilised last nite loh!!

Ok.. now.. here are the bad news..

(1) Long hours of duty

2 days back, my friend called me and asked me whether izzit possible to change P1 with him, as he had to go home and get stuff for our base exercise next week.. so I was like since I'm not going home during standbys, therefore, I offered to help him lah.. then after I agreed, I realise tat I made the wrong choice, becos' I had to do extra duties.. but then again, I agreed.. so can't break the promise liaoz.. I actually tot of it initially, but then gave up in the end, becos' if I do so, I wld appear a jerk.. so ya.. anyway, went to guard a gate in camp (where the contractors wld come in to our base to do some construction work) for abt 4 hrs.. of course it was raining heavily, and it doesnt help tat my boots have cracks for the water to seep into my boots.. so therefore, my sock was 30% soaked!

Then, went back bunk and sleep.. next morning woke up at 0545, and then refresh myself for a whilst, then go down to guardroom to help do duty.. so becos' I guarded the gate yesterday, therefore, have to guard the gate frm 0800-1130.. was supposed to be till 1300, but then due to unforeseen circumstances, my sgt had to go back guardroom and therefore, I was brought back to guardroom to do duty..

My duty was supposed to start at 1500.. but then frm 1130-1300, this period, did not really rest, becos I was doing some other minor stuff like clearing up the restroom as well as laying the bedsheets.. juz as I tot after laying the bedsheets I can rest/sleep for a while before my 1500 duty, I kenna called by my officer to do escort for a certain guy.. but after much questioning, I did not do the escort.. instead, I was to go and replace another person's duty frm 1300-1500.. and then cont duty frm 1500-1700.. was not supposed to do the duty of 1700-1900.. but I told my officer, I help tat guy do the 1700-1900 duty, then today dismounting gate, he do for me.. my officer say ok.. told my sgt abt it..

Then at 1900, a call came frm MINDEF, telling us tat I was mobilised.. so there again, continued my duty abt 10 mins later, then I pulled back my duty frm tat place.. by then, I was super shacked..

Then, went back to restroom and then left only 2 persons inside (including us).. the WHOLE standby shift came down at abt 1800 to help in the mobilisation, becos' there was they expected the mobilisation to be evening (but didnt koe wat time.. so they juz came down).. Then I suddenly felt so paiseh.. the other ppl out there are mounting, but I was there resting.. so when my officer call for help, I offered.. but never did I expected tat it wld last frm 1900-2100! I was deployed as a traffic controller for a certain section of the base.. if I was not there, the situation wld be chaotic!! so ya..

So after 2100, went back to restroom and rest for the nite.. so if you count, I was on CONTINUOUS duty for 14 hrs (frm 0800-2100!).. so u say tats shiong or not.. after my officer asked me whether I was ok.. and then dun koe wat he meant by when he asked me, "you still can mount?".. I juz smiled and ignored him lah..

Then at 2230, my friend woke me up and told me tat there was a change in duty.. I was detailed for a main gate and foot prowl at 0300-0500.. I was shocked.. actually, I was detailed for a table duty frm 0300-0500.. so ya.. then there was a change.. haiz..

So in total, my duty was 17hrs all in all! and tat is super shiong lah!!

Oh.. did I mention tat 4 men was on MC status yesterday, which explains why we did so much duties?

(2) Booking in timing!

People guess wat! Tml my shift is slated to mount duty tml.. so by right, becos' we dismounted today, we are supposed to book in tml before 0745 and mount duty.. at least tats wat last time when I was in GOH and the rest of the ppl are mounting on a 2 shift system, they come back the morning after they dismount and not the nite before, becos if this is so, then can u imagine tat they dun need to sleep at home and spend time with their family liaoz..

So I tot tat most probably this is the situation for us.. but then guess wat! My Officer-In-Command (OC) (who is directly in charge of the whole squadron shift!) said no.. muz book in 2300 TONIGHT!!.. yes.. so tat means no sleep at home tonite! I tell you.. when I heard tat, I feel like cursing and swearing my OC.. its not only me.. everyone in my shift was like cursing and swearing.. but wat can we do? We juz have to listen to orders!!

In view frm 160106-200106, my base is having a base exercise.. so no one in my squadron is allowed to bk out and we are on a 2 shift system! so ya..

Anyway, coming back to the issue.. when I heard its 2300 tonight, I was super sianz and was on my nerves! Moreover, I did not have enuf sleep.. so u can imagine how tired and agitated am I!! arghhh.. I was on the verge of mouthing vulgarities (dun wish to go into detail.. I wld juz say the most common vulgarity tat ppl speak!.. so ya.. I'm leaving it to your imagination!) at those who "stepped" on my toes!

(3) Mention of IPPT

Well ppl.. remember last time I said abt my IPPT? Yes ppl.. I have passed every station, but not fulfilled the pass standard! I actually failed the standard by 2 pts! Anyway, dun wish to remember the sad stuff!

So remember juz now I said I was very pissed and I wld actually scold those who "stepped" on my toes? so ya..

When I went back bunk, the 2 failures (who failed frm the beginning) frm another shift suddenly came in and shouted they passed their IPPT! And can u imagine how I felt? The more they talked abt it, the sadder I became! And sometimes angry too! I was actually almost on the verge of asking them to "shut up"! but didnt in the end loh..

Anyway, whilst walking down toranto all by myself (yes.. need some peace and quiet), I was on some soft music on radio and at the same time, feeling sad, disappointed and lousy, due to my failure lah.. I was thinking why ppl can do it whilst I can't??

I plan to take it after CNY.. see whether got time.. as well as I need to prepare myself physically.. becos' I think my stamina is dropping liaoz.. so ya..

See how lah.. but then again, I'm very lazy to train lah.. haiz.. see how lah.. but I muz confirm take and pass before I ORD in Oct!.. so ya.. actually, now I dun mind RT training frm my shift sgt.. like tat if train, I sure can pass one.. =).. Pray for me in this area of perserverance and strength? Thanx =)

(4) Sister hogging my com

Well.. some ppl are juz real irritating.. juz like my sis! I tell you.. I was on the verge of slapping her in her face (becos' she "answer" me back in a very rude way!!) She makes my blood boil!

As you all koe, I'm having my own com and she has her iBook! so since internet/router has been installed, she shld use her iBook as much as possible, rather than hogging my com!! I'm actually rushing for time to do up my blogpost (becos wld not blog for close to a wk!), and there she do her project and talk/discuss to her friend.. waited to abt an hour for her to finish.. kept chasing her and in the end, she gave up!

She was actually on my com to do something with the prog, Macromedia something.. I told her tat I need to use to update my blog becos wont be using tonite.. but she didn't care.. she juz say wait wait.. arghh..

Then I told her to install the prog into her com and use her iBook to go net and dl watever u want since u got internet too.. then she said she dun koe how to open the program on the iBook.. so I told her, "since u dun koe how to use the prog (which is for PC), why still get the iBook? U get the iBook also no use!" fwah! I tell you ah.. I dun care already.. I juz "shoot" her!! argghhh..

So now after much pestering, tats why I can use the com.. so ya..

Ok lah.. thanx ppl for listening to my woes.. dun feel tat it helped much venting my anger in my blog.. but it sure does a little..

so as mentioned juz now, wont be blogging for close to a wk, becos I wld be in camp till fri..

So till then, have a GREAT week ahead...

** I'm still counting down the days LEFT to serve.. its 277 DAYS to ORD!!

Disappointed guy,
<<< abriel >>>